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Updated: Wednesday, 20 Feb 2013, 9:05 PM EST
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(WTNH) -- It is now 10 years to the day since the deadly Station Nightclub fire in Rhode Island. One hundred people died, including eight with ties to Connecticut.
One of those victims would now have been a grandmother.
"This is the picture I have of her that is my favorite."
Angela Bogart remembers her mom Jude Henault. Always happy, always positive. She feels lucky she had a special day with her mom and sister 10 years ago Wednesday.
"When she had left the salon she said, alright bye I love you this was really cool we had a mother-daughter day all three of us, even though you were working," said Bogart.
Fond memories followed by painful days. Henault had gone to the Station Nightclub in Rhode Island with her boyfriend Sam Miceli to see the band Great White. Bogart recently forced herself to watch the fire video from inside the club February 20, 2003.
"The only thing I can say is my mom was in there," Bogart said. "My mom was in there and she was dying."
Her mother's remains were identified four days later.
"I just wasn't ready to hear what she had to tell me," said Bogart.
At just 19 herself, she had to then tell her younger brother and sister. Ten years feels like yesterday, but also a lifetime away. Her mother's picture now hangs above her daughter Sharlee's crib.
"My mom would just love her so much," said Bogart. "I probably would not see her, she'd probably want to take her all the time."
Sharlee's middle name is Jude after her grandmother, who she will only know through pictures and her mother's stories.
"It does in a sense get easier. The pain never goes away," Bogart said. "I'm always going to miss her. I miss her every day, I cry on and off.
Bogart tells News 8 one of the reasons she talked with us is because of her daughter. She wants her to know more about her grandmother and have this story as sort of a keepsake for her.
Sam Miceli's brother and mom still believe Sam is looking out for them.
Miceli's brother Tim talked to News 8 about the painful loss but also the comfort they find in little things they believe show Sam's spirit is still with them.
Every Friday night his mom's phone rings just once.
When they try to call back the number a message says it is out of your area. Miceli who owns a tattoo shop in Norwich showed us a tattoo he has of his brother.
His mother and sister's images reflected in his sunglasses.
Miceli also tracked down and bought back a Jeep his brother had restored 22-years-ago.
Fond memories, along with sad ones which come with concerns.
"It's even hard to watch movies now action packed movies with fire and explosions," said Tim Miceli. "You go to a concert and they have pirotechnics and you're looking around for exits. Everywhere I go, going to a movie theater now, anywhere, I'm always aware, where are the exits, how fast can I get out of here."