WINDSOR, Conn. (WTNH) — A man who says he could have been like Sandy Hook shooter Adam Lanza is speaking out against one of Governor Malloy’s proposed spending cuts.

A $25 million cut to adult mental health programs across the state is just one of the social service programs under the budget cutting ax in the year ahead. There’s over half a billion in spending cuts in the Governor’s new budget.

“I was suicidal, homicidal, and I wanted to kill people,” said 60-year-old Don Morin of Manchester. He’s going public because for 30 years he says he’s been kept from the edge with regular medication and talk therapy. “I wanted to make the world suffer the way I felt like I was suffering. I had ideations of being like (Adam) Lanza. I wanted to kill people and then myself.”

Morin and others say it seems ironic that Governor Malloy wants to cut the budget for agencies that help people like him while also saying they want to try to avoid something like the tragedy at Sandy Hook. 

“I had a gun, an Uzi as a matter of fact,” said Morin. “I was starting to make plans and preparations for how I was going to do it.”

Forty-seven-year-old Andrea Jeter of Hartford is also going public to try to stop this spending cut. She’s bipolar and suffered very bad anxiety, but has had medication regulation and talk therapy for the past two years. 

“I would slip out of recovery and pick up those traits that I didn’t need to have, self medicating, isolating myself from friends,” said Jeter.

The Governor’s proposal would cut about $2 million from the agency that Jeter and Morin are talking about, an agency that hasn’t had an increase in funding in years. 

“That would affect about 5,000 people we’re currently serving in our adult clinics,” said Heather Gates, President and C.E.O. of Community Health Resources. “That would need to be multiplied across the state with other providers providing those same services.”

There are about 100 mental health and substance abuse providers operating over 230 clinics in the state. They currently serve about 50,000 Connecticut residents, like Morin and Jeter.